Body Image Why did I write about it? It's because my thesis about woman's body image. It discusses why many women have a negative body image. I'm sure that imaging mass media is one of the causes. They tell us about what beauty is, it's about being skinny, pretty, and have a flawless skin. So, it is not surprising that whitening and slimming products become very in demand, especially in my country. It doesn't matter if you use these products to enhance confidence, but it would be very alarming when you dependence on the product, especially when it comes to believing that you can only be beautiful by using these products. I found many ads only reveals the outer beauty and ignore the inner beauty. It can make a woman frustrating. I hope advertising is not only raising about outer beauty but also about inner beauty. Because "beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart", said Kahlil Gibran.

Do you know any good books for learning Mandarin ? (for beginner)

When I was your man Have you heard Bruno Mars's song, when I was your man? Yes, that beautiful song really touched my heart. If you haven't heard it, well I'll tell you. this song's about a man who regretting the way he treat his woman. He regret that he should have bought her flowers and held her hand. He should have gave her all my hours when he had the chance. But it's too late, because now she's with another man. Well, Bruno Mars has showed me the real man with all of his songs. Some men did that. He fell in love with a woman, then broke her heart, and wish that she would forgave him, then broke her heart again, then did it again, did it again.. I guess that's all. I'll listen another Bruno Mars's song. :D

Mother, my true love Today I have a bad news from my friend, Irdan. His mother passed away while he was working out of city. It was so sad to know your mother left you and you don't have a chance to see her directly. Suddenly, I miss my mom. I remember all the bad things that I did to her. I have been a hard girl all this time. So, when I came home, I spent more my time with her, we have dinner and talk about everything, I do everything she told, etc. I just want to show her that she means everything to me and she is my true love. I love you, Mom.

Confession night I had a fight with my boyfriend last night. We fight about a lil thing. Almost every fight we had is about a little problem for me, but a big problem for him. I started to ask myself if he still love me, but it ended with a tears. I don't know what to do. People keep saying that I should always follow my heart. But when my heart gets broken into pieces, which piece should I follow?

terribly lecturer I'm in the last year in my college, so I've been studying harder for finished my thesis. A thing I wanna share with you, I have a very terribly lecturer which means he never showed up in the campus and he never let me visited his house. Every time I asked him about my thesis, he answered me sharply like I'm the dumbest person in the world. I hate that cause no one ever treated me like him, because I knew I'm not dumb. I'm not the only one who treated by like that. Another five of my friends whom he lecture had the same chance. Once, my friend called Dita cried when she was knowing that she's gonna lectured by him. It's been 3 months I working hard for my thesis without someone helped me. All I have is my boyfriend and my bestfriends who always supported me when that jerk was enjoying his idle time. Seriously, I hate that guy. >:(

How do I control my insecurities? I feel so insecure almost all the time. I overthink about everything. I get nervous, confused, embrassed easily. It started since I was in a college. whereas, I was studying psychology which I have a lot of theory about that kinda feeling. But I don't know why it happens to me. I mean, it really sucks. Sometimes, I think it's because almost my lecturer pushed me too hard to be perfect. They always critisize about what did I do though it was about lil thing. But I see it didn't happen to my friends. So I thought maybe it wasn't about my lecturer, it's all about me. But I don't know what and why.

First notebook entry: Introducing myself My name is Anis. I was born and raised in the awesome city called Bandung which is located in Indonesia. My native language is Bahasa Indonesia. I am a student at the Unisba. Here I am studying to become an psycholgist. I am a moody person because I am a cancer (they say cancer bring unexpected mood swings), hard worker, lovable, and easy going. I enjoy drawing, shopping, dancing, singing, and all of those fun things. I have 2 bestfriends, Ken and Mega. We almost did every single things together. We loved girl things like accessories, cosmetics, gossips, sharing secrets, and many more. In that time, I'm so grateful for being a girl. I have 2 brothers. my elder brother is Gilang. He's such a great man. He worked at one big company which made my parents proud. my yonger brother, Ari is student at Taruna Bakti High School. He's such a playboy. He get into relationship very fast. No doubt, I admit that he has a cute face.