What does this sentence mean? I desperately need an answer. This sentence has to do with fashion and clothing: Patterned elegantly with blue stripe detailing, lace up and cut away styling. So, what does lace up and cut away styling mean!!

On wasting time I look without and I find supportive people around me, then I look within only to find my worst enemy. Sometimes I criticize myself harshly, especially when I waste time. Many could think wasting time is a normal issue, but for me it's a cause of distress. Everyday I have to follow a certain ritual of reading, watching documentaries about science or astronomy and resuming my online courses. And if I didn't perform this kind of ritual, my inner enemy starts to judge me, to belittle me, to torture me for not being worthy enough. I try to calm it, but this little monster starts to blame me for all the time I had wasted on depression and anxiety. Only when I do this ritual, I feel merited, I feel I can be something in the future.Sometimes I want to thank the little monster for pushing me further, other times I want to suppress it for pushing me too violently and mercilessly in times I feel vulnerable and forlorn. Doing this ritual keeps me distracted and far from being depressed again, that's why my little monster and I disdain idleness. "Take one day; share it into sections; to each section apportion its task: leave no stray unemployed quarters of an hour, ten minutes, five minutes- include all; do each piece of business in its turn with method with rigid regularity. The day will close almost before you are aware it has begun; and you are indebted to no one for helping you get rid of one vacant moment: you've to seek no one's company, conversation, sympathy, forbearance; you have lived, in short ,as an independent being ought to.'' Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte

Self-destruction in Wuthering Heights

“Heaven did not seem to be my home; and I broke my heart with weeping to come back to earth; and the angels were so angry that they flung me out into the middle of the
heath on the top of Wuthering Heights; where I woke sobbing for joy.”
Emily Brontë, Wuthering Heights

Chathrin from the novel ''Wuthering Heights'' says this quotation to emphasize how she
wants to be expelled from heaven just to be with her lover Heathcliff in Wuthering
Heights.It strikes me how one is willing to be self-destructive for his/her lovers. Is self-destruction the highest prize one could give to his/her partner? Is loving someone a kind of self-destruction? when one is willing to sacrifice his/her life, his/her welfare in order to please someone else?

Heathcliff says “And I pray one prayer--I repeat it till my tongue stiffens--Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am living! You said I killed you--haunt me, then!...Be with me always--take any form--drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you!”

The inspiring Joan of Arc After watching the movie ''The Messanger: The Story Of Joan Of Arc'' and a couple of documentries about this honorable French Heroin, I am totally captured by her willfullness and determination to fulfill her cause. Was she really sent from God? This question was repeated many times during the movie, but whether she was sent from God or not, she believed in something all along her short life and surrendered completely to this idea or belief that she was a Messanger from God to help the Dauphin Charles VII and wage a war against the Englishmen. Although she was about 18 years old and a simple peasant, she had the strength and power to prove that what she believed was the right thing to do and by doing that(waging war against the English) many warriors believed in her, such as Gilles De Rais. She was brave enough to lead an army who at first made fun of her for being a girl and mind you,reader, the position of women at that time, but she couldn't careless because she had a purpose which made her go further and further.Unfortunately, her end was Catastrophic, she was burnt at a stake in front of many people for some false witchcraft charges at age 19. Still, she is capable of inspiring many people even centuries after her death.