I'm both concerned and pleasant at the same time that I start to see my lack of English skills. I passed some exams in my country, was regarded as a well user of English between my friends, and overestimated myself a lot. However, when I tried to fully immerse myself into English, it became tough. I talk to ChatGPT and found that I'm confused about usage of English all the time, I read novels and find the words and even the grammar used in literature context are too difficult, I watch everyday English videos not for English learning on YouTube and find that I can rarely understand them without guessing from time to time. I speak and find my pronunciation sucks, which is annoying but also makes me desired to challenge myself. I believe that, I would be a legend, even though not considered so by others😂. I would never surrender, like Churchill or Zelenski cheering their people.