I would like to know. Do you have to read English textbooks for your study?

Why don’t you add some information on your profile how and with what you need help with.  

If you’re interested by communicating verbally you can ask someone in the Italki community, first  to get acquainted with via a message, look for some serious people, though.

I think writing is more important, but since your pronunciation is “lame” as you said than you can do this I have no further <em>recommendations</em>.