I think English is more and more difficult to me. I have learnt English for over 10 years, actually, I began to learnt English 17 years ago. When I was a primary student, my mother take me to some extracurricular English class every weekend. At that time I was able to communicate with English speakers fluently with some simple sentences. Although I did not have abundant vocabularies and made mistakes constantly, I could say what I want to say in English , and those English speakers usually understood what I say clearly. Six-year elementary school life passed away, then I went to secondary school. There we started to learnt the so-called grammar,everyday, the voice of our English teacher loitered in the classroom, " 'help somebody to do something'(bla bla bla and so on) I would like you to recite this phrase, and I will test you tomorrow morning ' We recited those grammar points day by day, and we had no chance to speak English any more. Right now I am a senior college student, I have not study English for about four years.I thought I would not have a relationship with English any more. Shortly after that, I found I was wrong, there will be a good learning and job opportunity for me in Australia, that means I will study abroad and have a good chance to work there later, unfortunately, I have to start learning English again. Today, my ex-girlfriend made a me phone call from America ( She have studied in the USA for five year, and she went there after graduated for senior high school.At that time I did not go with her , that is why we broke up.) Her English is splendid as a foreign English speaker in my opinion. Due to I will have a IELTS exam in 27th of this month, I suggested to talk in English, but immediately I regreted, I found I could hardly come up with even one word when she asked me except "yes", "yeah" , "no" and "nope". My poor English restricted my description very much and I felt disgraced.Although she did not laugh at me at all, but I still could not relax. Why? Was it because of my lacking vocabularies? I remember that someone has told me a few uneducated native speakers know less than 2000 words which would not influence their daily life at all. But why cannot I? Anyway, let it go.I believe that I still need more practices and more hard works. At this moment, some wards which said by a orator of the Ted that crosses my mind "Do it , and trust yourself! "