Please help me understand I saw this paragraph(no more detailed context), and there are some places I cannot make clear. ------------------------------- she wrote, she'd be too preoccupied with her exams and papers to really show us around but neither of us did << 1. DID WHAT?>>. The first summer after she left, she came east for a month, staying with my grandmother in Hartford, but I refused to see her, refused to even discuss it with anyone, and although I heard hushed conversations between my father and her over the phone, I surmised that she'd decided I was old enough to decide for myself if I wanted to see her, an awareness<<2. WHAT DOES AWARENESS REFER TO?>> that left me even more miserable than had she or my father insisted<< 3.INSIST ON WHAT?>>. --------------------- Tentatively, are possible there some problems with the expression in this paragraph, which make the author not so clear to be understand?