You can't have it all Sunday evenings are blue. Most people sit on the couch, staring to the wall, and think about how lonely - or job frustrated, or financially drowned, or apparently unjustifiedly depressed - they feel. So do I, I'm not an exception. In my case, my pity source is my working life. In fact, I have a chronic failure feeling... as if I hadn't yet, nor will have never, met with the expectations that somebody else (but mainly myself) had over me. Those moments are hard. We all regret decisions we made, paths we chose to take. We sigh for those other options we did not give a try. Had we decided opposite, maybe life would be brighter now. However, we need to bear in mind that everyone has also achieved some goals, regardless how tiny they may look. We always tend to focuss on our mistakes - and we forget than even a stopped clock is right twice a day. In the end, life is about understanding that nobody can have it all. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. But as long as you keep playing, you will never be a looser... not even when it's a blue Sunday evening.

Some awesome "English idioms" I have recently learned in a mock context :) A couple of weeks ago I had a to swallow a bitter pill at work. One of the variables wasn't take into account during the desig of an all-new process, and so the company wasted a huge amount of raw materials. I barely collaborated in the project but, as my colleague is always considered whiter than white by my our managers, I had to pay the bill for everything. As you may imagine, I asked my boss for help to find the problem in the design. However, I soon realised that she wasn't up to give me a hand. Then, I decided that I would muddle through on my own. Maybe I didn't know how to solve my problem yet, but I was centainly going to find a way to iron everything out. In the beginning it was pretty hard. I had to hit the ground runing and to self-teach about different bits and bobs of the project. As I said before, my participation had been insignificat, and so I had loads of stuff to learn. However, after various days working overtime and barely sleeping because of the stress, I finally founded the solution. And, you know, I really got a thrill out of succeeding in my task. The day after I went to talk to my boss and gave him the good news. She took my report away from me and, after skimmed it, she made a beeline for the supervisor of the department's office. My boss always craves for the limelight and took credit for my hard work. Long story short... I am not happy about the work environment I have to put up with, but at least I was capable of pushing myself to the limit and to develop my skills. But of course, I am seeking for a new job!